The love thread

[Kyo]

Sept 6, 2013 7:17:24 GMT snakearms said:

I love her. She was my friend. She cared about me. I remember the bright look in her eyes. I remember holding her. I remember waking up next to her. I remember holding her hand as she pushed out our perfect son. I still and always will love her.

I'm sure she thinks I didn't care. I wish she knew how wrong she was. She was my friend and I never, ever stop loving my friends. The only shot at living a good life came with her. Now that we hate each other, hope for a good life is gone. But at least I had that moment. My son will live a better life than me. He will make better decisions. His dad went through enough bullshit. If I can save him the trouble, I will.

You sound depressed. I've been in your situation before. I know the feels...

Just don't do anything irrational. Wounds heal over time and laughter is the best medicine. I know saying forget her won't help, it's crappy advice, but its the first step in over coming bullshit.

But since you have a child I'm sure she's in your life often.

Just strive through it. It's hard, trust mr I know, but depression is a bad evil, and drugs won't help it.

[snakearms]

I wasn't on "drugs" that night. I know many people have felt the same way I feel. But different people deal with it...well, differently. I'm 31 years old. People say that's young but, goddamnit, I don't feel young. Things are quiet now. When I was younger, I was distracted by living life. But now, the party is over and I realize that the only people who matter or will matter are my family. My son is my family. Shit, he's me. I hope he retains certain qualities of mine but I really hope he doesn't retain certain flaws. I miss his mother. I always like to blame her but, in reality, it's my fault. It's all me. I'm a fucking psychopath and I know I should feel a certain way but I just don't. I only feel things when I'm drunk.

Whatever...

[snakearms]

I always had a crush on this girl named Gwen. It was one of those things where you meet someone and there is that immediate connection by just making eye contact. I knew I wanted to fuck her and I knew she wanted to fuck me. One night, I was playing pool at the bar, which was about to close, and I got a phone call. I answered and she said "what are you doing?" She said "Come over." Keep in mind, this was a relationship that was forbidden for reasons I won't disclose.

I went over, I knocked on the door and, when she opened it, I grabbed her. I picked her up and took her to her room and threw her on her bed. I suppose you can imagine what happened from there. We weren't supposed to do it but we did. Damn, she was fine. But, looking back...it wasn't that great. But this song will always  remind me of her. I don't love her like I love my son's mom but I do wish her well. =)

[snakearms]

[snakearms]

What happened to my Kikko? My Zukko Bean? My Zuzi-Q? My Chocolate Thunder? Well, my Queen:



EDIT: It's funny. I remember the little things like when we were cooking and the pan caught flames or washing her belly in the shower or watching The Wire on the couch or when I would come home covered in paint and she would run up and hug me or when we first found out she was pregnant and she looked at me and said "will you still love me" and I grabbed her hand and said "of course." Anyway, Kikko, I wouldn't mind eating your asshole. What do you say?

[Kyo]

Sept 10, 2013 14:55:54 GMT snakearms said:

What happened to my Kikko? My Zukko Bean? My Zuzi-Q? My Chocolate Thunder? Well, my Queen:



EDIT: It's funny. I remem
ber the little things like when we were cooking and the pan caught flames or washing her belly in the shower or watching The Wire on the couch or when I would come home covered in paint and she would run up and hug me or when we first found out she was pregnant and she looked at me and said "will you still love me" and I grabbed her hand and said "of course." Anyway, Kikko, I wouldn't mind eating your asshole. What do you say?

Zus anus isn't bleached. It's unmarked territory snake. Stay awayyyyy.

[snakearms]

Well, she's a Black woman anyway. A strong African Queen. So it might look weird if she bleached her starfish.